Friday, 6 April 2012

Tired.

Somewhere among this whole crowd, I have lost myself. I have no clue, what's going on around me. Everyday seems to be tougher than the previous one. There are times when I just want someone to call me and talk to me. Tell me their problems and hear mine. There are times when I am just so frustrated, to talk to anyone. There are times when I just want to sleep and never get up. There are times when I need him to be there for me, but no he is busy. I don't know, if other people are going through worst, most of them are, but apparently this is killing me. I hate the feeling of getting up every morning and realising I have to somehow mange to pass this day. Not any more. I can't take the pain for one day more. No. I might die.
Where were you when everything was falling apart?
And all my days were spent by the telephone, that never rang
And all I needed was a call, to the corner of first and Amistad.
Seriously, I can't take it anymore. I just can't. I wish I just die at this very moment. I wish people killed me, or I died in an accident or someone pushed me from a bridge. Just something.
Because I am tired. Tired of living.

3 comments:

  1. Trust me that's never going to happen..you never die of a broken heart, you only wish you did. I know the wait gets too much. I m living it too.. But just think about the people who will b affected. Think of the years your mom spent nurturing you. Won't be fair na? Just think of them and keep going no matter how pointless it seems..

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    1. It's not only my guy, who's hurting me. Everyone. Including mom and everyone. It seems pointless to even think of living now. :\

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  2. It happens. Gone through everything in a different way. I don't want to convince you by saying anything. I will just hope the phase passes soon. After this is over, only then you will realize how strong it has made you. And yes, Maithali is right- You never die of a broken heart, you just get suicidical tendencies.

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