Wednesday, 28 March 2012

I'm no superman.


No, I can't do this all on my own. No, I'm no, I'm no superman.

People have been giving me a tough time lately. Everyone around me hurts me in some way or the other. And all I can do is cry. Honestly, I am tired of explaining things to them. Tired of explaining how much it hurts when you lie to me. Why did you lie? You didn't have to. I would have understood the situation. You just had to tell me. You didn't have to hide things from me? You don't have to be this rude. Just because I love you, doesn't mean whatever you say won't hurt me. It fucking hurts.
I probably should stop talking to them. No, I can't. They are only ones whom I talk to you. I love socialising but these are the only ones whom I get along well. I am disappointed.
Mood swings are something which I hate. It's like a minute before how nice he is to me, and out of nowhere, he becomes this cold-blooded, rude, and obnoxious stranger. I ask him what's wrong? He says nothing, you won't  understand. Well hello! Have you even tried telling me? No, you jut out of nowhere got to the conclusion that I won't understand. How sick!
I don't want to be sad. Honestly. Even I don't want to write such depressing posts but there is nothing happy or good in my life. Not a thing. Atleast not now.
You probably must be thinking I'm a maniac. Maybe I am. I don't know.

All I know is I am hurt. I am disappointed and I have no one to go to, no one to talk to you, and them tell how pathetic it is to be me.

3 comments:

  1. Its okay! It happens with everyone. Gone through this. If they are giving you a hard time, do the same with them! And don't show them that you are hurt! Never ever do that!
    I don't know what else to say. I hope this phase to be over soon :)
    And smile please :)

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  2. Scrubs, much? I love these lines. =)
    And, wow, when I go through Memories, Moments and Us, I feel like I'm listening to somebody narrate my own story back to me. The social butterflies usually have very few raazdaans or secret keepers, and when you get betrayed by one such secret keepers, DARN, that's when life comes crashing down.
    I don't know what'd be the point of reassuring you that everything will be alright be? Hence, I'll just send you a virtual hug.
    Keep the faith .

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  3. CD!!! You are so sweet, man. I really hope the same. And tough time, na. I am bad at that. More over, I will just give it some time.
    And yes, just for you. :)

    @Crystal I love the song. :)
    And I am glad, or no, the better word is, honoured that you actually feel that way regarding my blog.
    I really have stopped trusting. It will take me sometime to get back to the track, but I hope it will be fine.
    And thank you for the hug. ^_^

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